Saturday, June 13, 2015

Calming down in life!

Oh my goodness, all I want is one free day to myself! I have this to do. I have that to do. I have to call this person. This person has to call me. I have to cook. I have to clean. I have to do my homework. I have to do my wifely duties. I have to do my mother duties. I have to make sure the bills are paid. I have to make sure that everything is done right. I have to make sure that this and that is organized. I have to do the calendar of activities for the month. I have to balance the check book. OMG...I have to do EVERYTHING! But I do notice that I am doing this for everybody else BUT I never do anything for myself. Yes, I know it is my fault. It's my fault that this is happening. Well, that's going to stop. I have to take time for myself or I'm not going to be able to enjoy my life.

My birthday is this month (June 29th) and I truly want to just enjoy my birthday by just sitting at home and of course, blogging. That is what makes me happy. That is what makes me comfortable. That is what relaxes me. But there are other things that I want to do. I want to go to hear live music. I want to go to different restaurants and try new things. I want to go on a nice girls night out with a "non-judgmental" zone. I want to go to blogger events in and out of town. I mean there are things that I know that interest me that I would like to attend but I can't. I am limited in transportation and I pray that ends very soon. We, my husband and I, are on a one car system and it's so hard. I just started back working full time and it's a little difficult to save right now to get another car. But in due season, it will come. God will provide.

I am just getting to a point in my life that I really need to come down and enjoy "MY" life and just focus on me and my family. I am getting older and wiser and some things just don't interest me any more. So my main focus is if it not mandatory for me to do, or benefit me and/or my family, or just really worth it, then I'm sorry that is not for me and I'm not going to do it. Why am I just starting to do this? Over the years, I have learn who is for me and who isn't. People will always call on you to do this and that for them but when you need them, they are not so helpful to you. It really does hurt my feelings and I try very hard to hide it. It's kind of not fair for my husband to see my weeping and hurt side of what someone else has done to me. So, I am going to stop that and just focus on the important factors in my life, ME and MY BOYS!!! Some times, you just get tired of being tired.

Stay tuned for more!

Until next time,


SMOOCHES!!